Narcissists have a lot of pent up shame. Under that flashy image and fake smile is someone who feels worthless, ugly, unloveable and ashamed.
But where does this shame come from?Enquiring minds want to know.
Narcissists are made in different ways. Not all Narcissists had a traumatic childhood of abuse and abandonment. For some Narcissists they may have inherited the Narcissism from their parent without even having spent a day with that parent. Narcissism can also be learnt. No matter which way a Narcissist is formed it is the Spirit of Narcissism that attaches themselves to them that make them all the same.
If you don’t know by now, I believe Narcissists are demonically possessed. The Evil Entity that resides within the Narcissist comes with a few gifts and burdens. But the burdens out weigh the gifts. And the Covert Narcissist’s True Self becomes more of a reflection of the Evil Entity that possesses them. Basically, the person in which the Spirit of Narcissism resides becomes more or less what the Spririt of Narcissism itself it is. For example: Narcissists are negative balls of energy because that is what the Spirit of Narcissism is. A big ball of negative energy. The Evil Entity hates people; so the Narcissist hates people. The Evil Entity controls the Narcissist, so the Narcissist tries to control others. The Evil Entity feeds lies to the Narcissist and the Narcissist lies to others. The Evil Entity makes the Narcissist feel worthless and miserable and the Narcissist in turn makes others feel worthless and miserable.
Narcissists make people’s lives miserable because The Evil Entity makes their life miserable. And this is where the Shame comes into it. That same negative, Evil Entity makes the Narcissist feel like they are worthless. It makes them feel that they are nothing, and nothing they do will ever be enough. This Evil Entity influences the Narcissist to do things that they are later ashamed of and prefer to forget. The Evil Entity is like an internal black-mailer who taunts and oppresses the Narcissist every chance it gets. The Narcissist only gets relief when they themselves are inflicting pain on others, as the darkness within them feeds off of the hurt and suffering of others including the Narcissist.
But when the Narcissist is able to hurt you and break you it makes them feel good because the Evil Entity feels good and praises their efforts. Your pain gives the Narcissist relief from their inner torment. They themselves do not seem to realise or want to accept that they are not alone in their heads. And that the shame they feel for their True Self is a result of the foreign entity that has taken them over and controls and assaults their mind and spirit.
Therefore, they see their True Self , which is sadistic, dark and miserable as something to hide from the world. They know they ain’t right! The know their wicked behaviours are not acceptable but instead of admitting and owning up to this imperfection they prefer to keep it hidden. They prefer to wear a mask and cultivate a fake image and made-up persona to fit in and develop relationships.
The Narcissist’s Shame will remain as long as they remain a Narcissist. The Evil Entity will not give them any peace and will keep them feeling worthless and miserable. The Evil Entity will also continue to drive them to do things they are ashamed of to add to their existing shame. It’s a never-ending cycle to keep the Narcissist in a loop of frutration that they cannot escape.